3/10 – I just feel that I need to capture my low mood score. Feeling like I don’t know what to do with myself. Complete lack of motivation and do not want to do anything. I am sitting here at home trying to find something in me to do something. I think the best thing for me to do is to get myself to David Lloyd.
I ended up going to David Lloyd and smashed out a good Wattbike session. My mood has not really improved that much. I just feel down and fed up. At times today my thoughts have been quite jumpy and messy, which is the only way I can describe. I feel restless and I want a new challenge. I would love to enter Ironman Wales in September but the £400+ entrance fee is stopping me (rather than the painful challenge). There is a sprint distance triathlon in Saundersfoot the day before so I may look at doing that instead. I feel a bit peed off with myself as I seem to be eating loads and I feel like I have put on a tump of weight. I do not want to weigh myself as I do not want to see. It seems strange that not so long ago I was writing about my complete lack of motivation for food.