Saturday 8th October 2016 (no time recorded)
5/10 – Day ok, but feel a little sad. Couldn’t be bothered to rush around this morning so did boring chores before heading off to gym. I met ‘A’ afterwards and we discussed the possibility of me being on the TV and if ‘A’ was ok with that as our lives could potentially be ‘opened up’. I know that I need to handle what we have been through sensitively as it is not just about me and there are wider implications for those involved. ‘A’ is also quite a private person and I would need to consider what I openly talk about. I feel that I need to protect ‘A’ from this as much as I can. For me, I guess it is different because I am now so used to talking and being open about it as if it is part of the norm. ‘A’ is keen for me to do this as she appreciates that it will be good for me. I just need to perhaps rethink my approach.
Talking of ‘A’ I am finding this hard today. Whilst looking for something earlier I saw some of our Christmas stuff and it made me sad. It is still hard to think about how much has changed over the last 12 months. In fact maybe best I don’t think.