Monday 31st October 2016 (8.59pm)
4/10 – I forgot to write yesterday and by the time I remembered it was too late and I was in bed. Yesterday was ok apart from the headaches and drowsiness. I am thinking about getting a puppy, so yesterday I began researching ones which are hypoallergenic, small and easy to manage. I had a Trazodone and went to bed at 10.15pm. I thought I would try and sleep without the help of a sleeping pill but I gave in at midnight and got up for one.
Again, this morning I woke up tired. I had a GP appointment at 8.30am. We discussed what happened on Thursday night, once again making sure that I was safe. I have had my medication changed and now been given Fluoxetine. I took one this afternoon and so far no problems. I have been given another 3 sleeping pills and I have to go back on Thursday.
I made my way across to David Lloyd as I knew I had to do something. I felt really weird being there, it was as if my head did not belong to me. I swam an easy half a mile in the fresh air of the outdoor pool and had a sauna.
I have been doing more research about a puppy and I am going to see one tomorrow in West Wales. I am quite excited about it. I have never had a dog before. I did check out the rescue centre today but they didn’t have one to suit my requirements.
I have come to the end of this writing in this journal and flicking back though the pages it is hard to imagine what I have been through and what I have felt and done. One day I will read back though, when the time is right. Until then, I will close this book and start a new one tomorrow.